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???
I think theres been some sort of mistake
I placed an order years ago and have been waiting patiently
I know these things take time
I’ve lived, I’ve laughed, I’ve made the best of things
waiting
I always had the belief that it would still happen
“my life” the one I was meant to have…the one I dreamed of
but…
I just saw it…. it was right there in front of me
But I wasnt in it,
Someone else must have gotten my order by mistake
Everything so exact…so perfect just like I imagined it
You, the house, the kids, the life
But it wasn’t me and it already happened
All of it
It wasnt me you fell in love with
It wasnt my family and friends you stood before
the promises were not made to me
I’m not in the pictures
I didnt bear nor name any of your children
my memory holds none of their first words
It wasnt me at the recital or carpooling the team
or at the hospital that one time
Entire lives have been created and lived while i waited alone
Time cant go back, the concrete has set
I lost you before i ever had you
Its too late to order another
I missed it
what’s left for me?
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